AfterThoughts

And Barack Obama gets a nobel .. for what
neyws some lines which i wrote in the System Prog class..

God's very own child ,
left in lurch
while he was romanticizing with destiny,
what he was robbed of was fate ,
and that was the final nail ..when God said "yes"
when even a nod would have done it ..

He was not berated nor savaged ..
but the road ends over here ,
Probably this all is a part of redemption,
getting rid of life was his salvation,
He was never an atheist ,
but even the cogitated mind couldnt answer "why"

and the thoughts were enough for a shudder,
sweats mixed with tears are not that salty though
His life now stands vitiated.
he wasnt debased ,
and the whole of tumult ended..
sshh.. someone's sleeping..


Signing Off !! happy reading guys

A "low" Five for these fives..

its 5.30 in the morning and am yet to sleep largely because i woke up at 5 ..(dont get me wrong ,'twas of the evening ) ....
As for a day after sessional ..and yeah!! it was pretty boring...(well unless you are one of those cribbling committed souls ,sunday afternoon is kinda boring and induces sleep...good for Insominacs like me :) ) ..
I am here scribbling rather typing because i dont wanna study for my Dbms lab viva today ..
and yeah ! am going to write about something which i always thought ,i should but never did..
I promise this one is going to be crazy atleast it would have some people likening me to push their fingers up my nose (whoa !!nice imagery )
Five Things i dont like about manipal..
1. Pabla ...(p.s. our diro is now not wid us ...still )
2. Couples saving some bucks ...and using the library for quite a "meaningful purpose".
3. GPL at my birthday ...( God !! i had a back which when displayed would have been for commercial purposes for the Indian National Congress)
well btw Shania Twain is also gud with a light hearted song "that dont impress me much "
i feel like humming but for my rummie whuz slpn like evry1 else ..so i vl save it for an empty room..
4. Excessive drinking ( God this has got me enraged me so many times ...why the hell do you drink when you cant handle it and have to depend on someone else to dump you to your room and what if you he dumps you on a dustbin or sideways and you remain there ..wtf )
(P.S. I have seen people going out with their gfs n then gettin high (read :talli ) and their (respective :) )gf's escorting them ....)
well umm... i had a pretty tough time when i had a friend at upper berth while on the return journey to home...
and with him and his 250 ml of vodka spilling beans enough to show his unarbitrated state.
5. The Fakeness in everything - Well this is not exactly specific to manipal but i found it over here just as i happned to live here..
where the world is so sweet ,talks so good ,people so awsome (p.s. all these when you are there with them )
Scene 2 : ...Action..( you are nowhere in the picture ) and it starts with a !@##$ salutation to you and your friends cribbing about what they had would have loved to do to you given a chance...
well sometimes the scene 2 is replaced with the poison laced sweetness ...so the sooner one realises ,the better ...
this is kinda good ..it prepares you for the world you had been impatienly waiting to conquer
...thy world...
but there has been an impediment ...now even am a "faker"(i dont know whether this is a valid word as per the english dictionaries or not but i vl take it as part of a blogger's freedom ) and the worse part am enjoying it too....got to be shortlived ( good for me i guess ).
signing off......Happy Reading!!!!!!

A gaze at the lost Star

The nights are turning to dawn ...
Sun still very much on the other side
the cold is shivering ..
the feet are too lazy to move
and my head pretty numb

and am still wondering ....
wait a minute ...
am bereft of any thoughts ..
am devoid of any senses
as if am conjured by some occults

And still i envision you
was it you ...oh my dear !!!
was it you for real ?
or was it one out of my insomnia
i do not know how ...

People say angels die early
because he needs them for this world
but still some angels are left out
because a lesser mortal needs him more than the God
because he loves her more than anybody else ever would

But no longer ..he was bereft of her .
She failed to see beyond my eyes,
she failed to read beyond what my lips uttered ,
she failed to see my trail of tears,
She failed to hear what my words said ,

Henceforth I lie in this cot for days.
And now my life is no longer split into days and minute,
its into moments with her and without her
I lie here devoid of my life .
I breathe but donot live , I speak but without voice.

if life is this worse then death would have been better ,
but i wont die...i donot wish to remain in oblivion
but am not going away..devoid of you

I am not dying ...am alive ...
although am choking ...still i am not dying
am breathing ...am alive ...
am not dying ...am alive ...am waiting...

Hope you had the time of your life !!!!

"Another turning point;

a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;

directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test

and don't ask why.

It's not a question

but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable

but in the end it's right.

I hope you had the time of your life."

I am in awe of these lines from the time 

when i first heard the song "time of your life " by greenday .

Well !! you can gauge my likeness for this particular song 

from the very fact that this song is my ringtone too..

(wasnt that a bit personal :) ).

I don’t know why should i write a review or analysis kind of thing for this song  .

but still am doing it ...and i am lest left ignorant and the legendary “i don’t know “.

The best of all "fork stuck in the road " which  so silently signifies 

the problems or maybe unwanted, uninvited situations in your life 

from which you had always wanted to run away and hide your face in obscurity

but then it doesnt always travel the way you had liked it to be ..

and then it forces you into circumstances where you have two choices to make 

either you try your way out 

Or you accpet the situation and then do watever u could do in the best possible way ..

"so make the best of this day "

and even after all the pains endured ..

the sacrifices made ...tears shed ..

but shouldnot ask why ?

because it was never a question but 

a lesson you had to learn whether you ever yearned for it or not (it doesnot matter )

Afterall it does boil to something called "destiny "

as someone rightly put it as 

"Destiny is a matter of lotsa chance "

but at the end .......it gotta be alright ...

just hoping that this was the "time of your life "......

a time which has changed the seconds ,

redefined questions with no answers ,

reignited the urge to live and to live beautifully ,

changed your frivolous attitude :

So that your dreams are never lonely again ....

So that you are no longer choked by thoughts 

So that you no longer spend your nights staring at those lonely walls ..

so that you never have your life split into time 

but time into life and that time shall be the "time of your life "....